JoS/Henriette/8th Journal - A Day in Whiterun

Evening Star, 28th, 4E 201

Dear diary, it's good to be back in Whiterun. I love this city, I genuinely do. It's a bit ran down, but at the same time, it has a lovely, rustic charm to it. Don't really like the barren landscape though. I like forests more. Some of the people I don't care too much about either, but there are a lot of charming people here as well, so it all balances out in the end. I came here on a business on behalf of Nazir, but there's no harm in staying a while longer. Everyone needs some time off every now and then.

I have two targets here and one elsewhere. One actually lives here, while the other one comes here every so often. I was also fortunate to find the latter, Man'juuro, with the Khajiit caravan outside the city gates. He travels a lot, so it's a good thing I didn't have to track him down. I had no idea how to go about actually murdering him without having the rest of his friends eat me alive. Nazir said he's an accomplished wizard, but honestly, killing him without alerting anyone else is the hardest part of this contract… That was until I learned that he has some levers he doesn't want to get pulled, some sore spots you don't want to poke. After that, killing him was easy.

I mean, he attacked me. All I did was defend myself! How could an adult man assault a little girl in broad daylight anyway? What a lowlife, am I right? His friends were pissed, but guards saw what happened! They sided with me, obviously. I'm just a little girl!

Morons.

Well anyway, the guy who lives here is some kind of meat vendor. I kind of want to kill him when he's out hunting, but he has been busy with his stall today. That's also what Nazir instructed. I'm not sure if it's strictly required for me to kill him that way… I think it's all right to kill him here in the city as long as I don't leave behind any evidence. It's not like there's going to be a bonus or anything. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow?

Anyway, I indulged in a whole new type of sinning today after discovering something interesting taking place in the streets. Two kids were fighting, and I spied in on them. This little Redguard girl called Braith was picking on Lars, a Nord who's with the Battle-Born family. Something about it rubbed me the wrong way, so I approached Lars as soon as he was alone.

As soon as Lars saw Sofia and me, he was clearly intimidated, even though I was trying to assure him I was on his side. He has some trust issues, which is kind of sad, but at the same time, cute. He has trouble standing up for himself, and he was trying to convince me to keep Braith from bullying him any longer. So, that's what I did. Except, I didn't want to convince her through the art of persuasion, but rather, intimidation.

I decided to go alone from here and stalked her for a bit. Then, I snuck up to her and pulled my dagger, pressing it against her neck, and twisted her arm behind her back. She yelped, but was too scared to scream for help, and those budding little tears on her face were pretty adorable as well. I told her I didn't want to hurt her, but I may have to if she didn't do what I wanted. I said that she had to come with me quietly, to which she reluctantly agreed. I relaxed my fighting stance and took her by her arm, ready to take her outside the city gates. Of course, guards didn't stop me. I mean, she's my age. They probably thought we were just playing.

I dragged her inside some shack, and as soon as I closed the door, I brandished my weapon again, telling her to strip naked. She obeyed my every command, even though she was clearly terrified out of her senses. Then, as soon as she was wearing no more clothes, I proceeded to bully her sexually. I started out pretty simple, just playing with her clitty using fingers and licking on her nipples, basically just trying to get her wet. She kept asking me why would I do something like this. She begged me to stop, said she wanted to go home, said she wanted to go back to mommy. That's when I thought I'd shut her up by stealing a kiss from her, but she started struggling so much before our lips met. She even hit me.

I hesitated for a moment, and that's when she begged me to not take her first kiss. She was saving it, cherishing it for someone else, someone she likes, someone who doesn't seem to like her back. I pressed her about this, but she was so embarrassed to say it out loud. Honestly, I had every intention in the world to rape her, but not anymore. Not after she finally budged and told who her crush was. It was Lars all along. Why would she bully him if she's in love with him? I asked her that, but she couldn't give me a straight answer.

That's when I told her that I actually wanted to bully her because of how she's been treating Lars, and let her get some of her own medicine. She was so shocked to hear this, and she even was afraid that Lars told me to do all this stuff, that Lars hated her or something. I told her, "no way, Lars wants to be friends with you", and that this bullying stuff was just my idea. She was still in tears, but now she seemed angry too. She called me a meanie, to which I simply replied, "I'm not just mean. I'm evil."

After that, I decided to sheathe my weapon as a sign of peace and gave her an ultimatum. I told her to confess to Lars, seduce Lars, and give her virginity to Lars before the clock struck midnight. I basically told her to "make your dreams a reality and prove to me that your love is more than just empty words". Otherwise, I would be the one taking her virginity. I, of course, insisted that I must see the whole thing unfold before my eyes. She was blushing like crazy, and I swear I could almost hear her heart beating faster. She simply asked me, do I promise to not do anything terrible if she agreed. I gave Braith my word and her clothes, and I told her to go find Lars. I would be following, not too far away from her, and follow her I did.

Sofia was still with Lars, keeping him company together with Mila. They're all on good terms and had fun playing, at least until Braith came back. She took Lars' hand and ordered him to come along with her, still blushing like a ripe tomato. Lars seemed distressed, but he followed along. He must've been worried that my plan had backfired and that Braith was out for blood. Oh Lars, you're such an innocent little cutie.

And then, I watched it all unfold together with Sofia, who had no idea what I had done with Braith. I knew she had it in her… Her bully attitude was perfectly in display even in the way she forced herself on Lars, kissing him like a lover seeing her husband after he returns safely from war. Ah, to behold such passionate love… it made me jealous watching those two go at it.

Braith confessed it so straightforward it was honestly impressive. The way she said, "I love you, I always have", was so cute. She was already undressing Lars, begging him to make love to her. Were these all her own emotions, or was she just scared of what I might've done to her? Well, honestly, I wasn't planning on doing shit…

And then, they both got naked and started going and it. They gave each other their first times, and they both seemed to love it. They looked so happy, they were so energetic too. There's just something so adorable about the idea of two preteen lovebirds falling for each other and learning about love and sex together like that. And me? I was just getting hornier and hornier. Oh man, I would've loved to take Lars' virginity too…

Sofia was still speechless. She was whispering to me, "what the fuck did you do, Henriette?" I was just holding my laughter and said, "Let's get out of here".

Later that day, Braith came to me. She looked a little angry at first, but then she hugged me and thanked me. It was… Bizarre, but at the same time, seeing her so happy at the end of the day also made me happy. I asked her to forgive me for being rough. She did, and then some. I now have a good friend in her.

You'd think that was the end of my long day of having fun, but no. I hadn't had the chance to have my share of fun yet. I was still feeling uncomfortably horny and needed a quick remedy.

So, I decided to visit the Cloud District. Yes, I do have friends in high places no matter how much Nazeem wishes it to not be so. Jarl Balgruuf is a personal friend of mine, and I'm also on excellent terms with the court wizard. Balgruuf's kids also look up to me, especially Dagny. I bet she's secretly a lesbian, considering how she acts anytime I'm near her. Frothar is mostly just jealous of me being an adventurer because his father won't let him practice with real weapons.

Then, there's Nelkir.

Nelkir is mature for his age. He's got a different mother from Balgruuf's other two kids, which is probably partially why he's like this. He doesn't look up to me in the same way his step-siblings do, but that's all fine and good to me. I'd befriend an honest boy over a sissy any day, even if it meant that they were a little rude every now and then. Besides, it makes conquering them all the more fun.

We talked and chatted for a while. He knows all kinds of fun secrets about this castle, more than he's supposed to. In that sense, I see a lot of myself in him because I loved sneaking around in Helgen myself. I asked if he wanted to make some more secrets and if he found me attractive. I kind of initiated it, but from there onward, he was the one making all the moves.

We spent just about an hour in his bedroom. He was smart enough not to impregnate me, but he was very adamant about doing me properly. I was a little afraid of him making a mistake and not pulling out in time, but at the same time, I wasn't thinking straight, especially after getting so horny from sucking his little preteen prick so much. Besides, it's not like I don't love the feeling of boys finishing inside me… It's just that dealing with consequences is kind of a pain, and I'm not wealthy enough to just afford Soul Gems on the fly. Although, on the other hand… The thought of an accident happening also excited me quite a lot…

He finished in my mouth and in my butt earlier, and even though he gave it to my front hole too, he made sure to pull out and cum on top of me too. It was pretty hot, not going to lie… He came with such ferocity, his little preteen jizz reached all the way to my chest and drew lewd white lines on my stomach. He was such a darling, never had an idea that a little boy would be able to make love to me that good. He wanted me to stay a night to do me later, but he also talked to me about one final secret, down in the basement of Dragonsreach. He called it "the Whispering Door". I had to investigate.

So, as stupid as it sounds, I talked to this door and it soon became apparent to me that I was speaking with none other than Mephala, the Daedric Prince of sex, lies, murder, and secrets… You know, the kind of things I like. She's a kind of goddess who, to one extent or another, represents a lot of things I value and find fun. I'm sure it's not that simple and that there's a lot more to her sphere of influence, but it doesn't matter to me because I wouldn't want to abandon my Lord Sithis. Would He even allow me to mingle with other gods, or would He be angered at me for worshiping a mere Daedra, something that's so much lesser than Him?

Her task for me was so simple it can be explained in one sentence: I just needed to open the door, and to do that, I had to steal the key. Simple as that. After that, all I had to do was pick up the sword sitting on the table, a sword that now belongs to me.

Mephala wants me to use this sword to betray those who trust me, care about me and even love me, and coat its blade in their blood. When I do it, and to whom I do it to is my choice, but betrayal is the key here. I don't have anyone like that in my life right now, except maybe Sofia, but let's be honest, there's nothing in this world that would ever make me do anything to harm Sofia. Regardless, it's a very interesting treasure to have in my arsenal… It's not really a weapon I'm too excited about carrying around anywhere I go, so perhaps I could have it stored somewhere? Maybe I could stash it in Sanctuary until I've found a place to live?

Well, either way, I think that's enough for now, my lovely diary. Nelkir is probably ready to sleep, and I want to wait for him in the bed… Who knows, maybe he wants to snuggle some more? I certainly wouldn't mind wrapping myself around his body one more time…

Evening Star, 28th, 4E 201

I gave in to the devil's temptation.

When Nelkir came back and we were ready to fall asleep, he was all pumped up and raring to go, but he was also done playing games with me. He had me tricked into a false sense of security, and then he started doing me from behind. It was so good. He had me begging in minutes, moaning at him to do me harder. Then that horny dog actually nutted inside me. I was a little mad at him, but then he just told me to be quiet and stop bitching, after which he did me a whole lot more. I swear, boys are really inconsiderate about these things. It's stressful to deal with this, you know? It's my body we're talking about. These things always take a toll on me. I had barely gotten past what those vampires did to me a few weeks back, and now I'll have to deal with this stuff again…

I was pouting, although I kind of was feigning half of it. He said not to worry, he'll take care of it, and told me to just have fun. Well, it's alright if he really takes care of it… I beamed at him and said, that's exactly what I wanted to hear.

We had a lot of fun afterward…

But the fun didn't stop even after waking up. He woke up with a magnificent morning wood, which was the first thing in front of me when he woke me up. He wanted me to take care of it with my mouth… What a needy young man… And even after he made me swallow his cum, he wanted to do me in a missionary position once again.

That was the end of it though. He already had a Soul Gem ready for me on the table, which was really thoughtful of him. He also let me take a bath in his personal bathroom, and Balgruuf's maid has been instructed to take care of me. It's like they're treating me like I'm one of their own. This maid joked to me being Nelkir's future wife. For some reason, I felt it was really hard to say no to her and say I was just fucking around… I mean, I enjoy sleeping around, but some people can be pretty judgmental…

I feel like he still isn't fully satisfied, but he's at least busy. I wrote him a little love letter and left it on the table saying that I can't settle down, I have places I have to go to and a lot of adventures left in me, but if I'm ever in Whiterun, I'm down to having some fun.

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