JoS/Henriette/7th Journal - The Ultimate Crime

Evening Star, 4th, 4E 201

First thing I saw when I entered Solitude was a public execution being held, but I didn't stay to see what it was about. There was also some Argonian lowlife trying to recruit me into his crazy plan of putting out the fire on a lighthouse. Yeah, talk about first impressions. Apart from that, this seems like a really charming city. The market district especially made a good impression on me, bought a really beautiful ring for myself. People seem to generally be very kind as well. Lot of people here need help with all kinds of small tasks in general. Well, it never hurts picking up some bounties and such, so I made sure to remember the words of those in need.

I also ended up visiting the Bard's College. They were very, very interested in me. Obviously. How could they not after hearing how well I could sing a little song? I may have the voice of a dragon, but I still sound sweet like an angel, and I'm charming beyond measure… One wink of an eye and boys start falling like dominoes. Don't mean to blow my own horn or anything… Oh, who am I kidding, I know I'm amazing.

It's also the first time in a long while since I felt like a kid. There's a lot of children here on the streets and I ended up playing with them for few hours. Getting to relax like that was really great, and I guess children here were happy to have a new playmate as well. All that running around in the sun made me weak and tired though, hungry as well, and even a little horny. These young boys happen to be quite handsome, so who can blame me?

When it was getting late, I had already decided on who I will seduce: Kayd. He had been eyeing my body up and down while blushing. I guess he's not used to seeing young girls in skimpy leather armor. Svari and Minette both warned me about Kayd, saying he likes to play rough. Oh, you handsome little Casanova, have you played rough with those two cuties? I was happy to become his next conquest.

We were playing hide and seek, I was constantly trying to make sure he was "it". When I eventually succeeded, I told him where I'd be hiding, and that if he wanted to play something more exciting, he'd come to me first. And so, as soon as he came down that back alley behind Bard's college, I stole a long, wet kiss from him and we both stripped naked. He was really insistent on doing it in my butt and wouldn't you know it, he gave me the best anal ever. Never thought I would be able to come just from that, but I did.

Now I'm gonna stay at the inn. I'm going to leave tomorrow, as I need to get back to work. I should really visit the Sanctuary, as I've completed both my assignments, and I still have that one task from the Night Mother I want to do that Astrid didn't let me complete the first time around…

Evening Star, 6th, 4E 201

Dear diary, if you're getting tired of everything going my way recently, boy do I have a story to share with you.

We left Solitude and decided to travel by foot as has become normal for us. The journey through the night was very peaceful, the worst we encountered were wolves and bears, never had any trouble with wild animals. But as the morning came, it started getting very bright very fast and we just had to seek shelter.

It seemed like an unassuming little cave, filled with wild animals. There were absolutely no signs of any civilized life anywhere. As we ventured deeper and further inside though, we were ambushed from behind by a group of Vampires living in this cave. Sofia escaped as soon as she was able to, which I'm glad about. We've had to make some new arrangements for our journey so we can help each other in case one of us is captured. It didn't work out this time though, so I have to weather this storm alone.

Anyway, at first, they seemed happy to be getting visitors, as they were probably hungry for blood or something, but when they realized that I was a Vampire myself, they decided to feast on me using other methods. In other words, all six of them gangraped me.

They took my precious Ebony Bow and my armor as well, but they didn't leave me naked. They locked me in ballet boots that are really, really hard to walk in, and made sure to collar my neck as well. They also gave me one lasting gift that I'm going to now carry rest of my life with me, pierced nipples. I'm not sure if I have any tools I can use to remove the rings on my nipples, but… At least it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. These piercings are really just metal. I've heard that some of them have even Soul Gems attached to them, not that these guys had anything like that.

Then, they dragged me deep into the cave, where I've been all day… And what a long day it has been… I should probably be sleeping while I can, because there's constantly someone here. Even when they leave me alone like now, they stuff plugs between my legs and lock them in with a chastity belt. It's so tight around my waist… Pulling it up is impossible, and down over my hips? Forget about it. What's even worse, they force-feed me Skooma to intoxicate me and make my body even more sensitive. When they return, they remove them, only to rape me. They actually trying to make me like this, trying to enchance my pleasure… But I'm not willing to give in.

I heard them talking a while back, that the sun is setting, which means that they'll go out hunting. Well, it was almost morning when I made it here… Maybe that's why they were able to ambush me? They were returning from a successful hunt. Well, nighttime will be my best chance at escape, but I don't have anything to use to break free from this cage, if it even is possible to pick. It looks sturdy and tough to break.

Either that, or Sofia gets some help. She's still out there somewhere, and I know that she knows I'm still here.

Evening Star, 7th, 4E 201

I was able to sneak a lockpick into my cage. They must've not predicted such a cunning move on my part. Then, I went on to stick it inside, I was as careful as I could be, and still, even still, I broke that flimsy piece of shit in half. I'm so mad!

Well, there went my first attempt at escape… Not that I would've made it too far anyway.

I tried to dispose of the broken lockpick by throwing it somewhere where I hoped they wouldn't find it… Never did I think that there would be an old helmet hiding in there. Obviously it made some nasty noise too, which alerted everyone in the cave. I received some pretty rough spanking and whipping in return, and they kept edging me by playing around with the plugs, but didn't drive me over the edge. It… It was so maddening, I was in literal tears…

Evening Star, 8th, 4E 201

Something unexpected happened today, and as a result of it, I was saved.

It was the Dawnguard. Five of their members recruits were in the area, which I guess is partially because of what happened with that Moth Priest around here. They might be highly suspicious of what's going on around here. They found me too, but thankfully, they didn't recognize me. They asked me, how long have I been here, and where I'm from. I said I'm from Dragon Bridge, after which they gave me a potion of cure disease. Well, it didn't end up doing anything to me, but they don't have to know that. They even helped me get out of all these restraints and gave me a blanket to wear. After that, they escorted me to Dragon Bridge.

At that point, I was a little scared, because it was going to become apparent that I wasn't from the Dragon Bridge. I thought about escaping, but that would raise suspicions too. Thankfully, Sofia was in Dragon Bridge, and when she happily announced that "she was so worried and was glad that I was back", the Dawnguard simply left, and that was that.

Well, then I realized that I had a huge problem. Either my stuff is still inside that cave, or the Dawnguard looted it as treasure. Me and Sofia went back to the cave to check, and thankfully the Dawnguard had prioritized returning me home instead of staying to pick up items. Some of my items were missing sadly, like all of my money, but on a flipside we found some extra stuff from the Vampires as well.

I cannot overcome my biology sadly, but I still have much room for improvement. I keep getting lucky with how my captors treat me and with other adventurers helping me, but my luck won't last forever. I need to get stronger.

Evening Star, 10th, 4E 201

Dear diary, I woke up to the worst headache I've ever had. What's up with all these lowlifes drugging me with Skooma… At this point, I feel like the only way to treat this defibrillating addiction is by actually drinking more of it. I'd hate to do that, I don't want to do that, but I'm just so grumpy and feel weak without it. I can barely stand it.

I'll stay in the Sanctuary and rest here for couple of days. Babette said she has something for me that can help ease my addiction too. Remains to be seen, but at least I'm glad that I have probably the best Alchemist in Skyrim tending to me.

Astrid seems to have come to her senses too, which is a very positive development. She finally let me go to Volunruud to speak to my contract, as commanded by the Night Mother herself. I have no idea what took her so much time. Looking back, I should've probably gone there without her consent a week ago, but oh well, I can't change the past.

My brothers and sisters seem to still trust her quite a bit, and even though I thought I should go there as soon as possible, some of them want to scold me for questioning Astrid's orders. Look, I'm not questioning her leadership, I'm just in a disagreement with her. Is that such a bad thing? Well, whatever, I suppose.

Evening Star, 13th, 4E 201

Talk about a strong performance on the battlefield, a real confidence booster for my ego. I'm about to tell about what I encountered in Volunruud. Shall we go over this together chronologically, my dear diary?

I wasn't expecting too many Draugr near the entrance because, well… That's not a thing that tends to happen too often. This place happened to be an exception to those expectations, as there were at least a dozen of those undead bastards piling up near the room that my client was holed up in. What's worse is that before we even realized just how many of them we were up against, we had already been separated by them. We were put in a situation where I had the escape route this time around, while Sofia's back was against the wall. I wasn't willing to run, not while there was still a chance that we could defeat them.

Just so we're clear, I'm not talking about just your run of the mill Draugr in rags types of zombies that crumble like dust if you just blow their way. No, half of these Draugr wielded voice and enchanted weapons. Remember that one time I talked about getting defeated by a Draugr that was able to summon wind and make himself invulnerable? There were two of those in this group. And wait, it gets better, because there were other strong variants here as well. Some of these guys could summon these weird skeletons with bones as black as night sky and glowing red eyes. The skeletons shot frost magic from their hands, but that was the least of my worries.

There would've been a time and day in my not so distant past when I would've honestly just lost there and then, but not this time! Sofia was defeated fairly quickly, but I wasn't going to let her body be defiled. I fought hard until none were left standing. I really needed a victory like this in my life. It's about time I've felt empowered from slaying my enemies like this.

Sofia left the crypt at that point to recover, and I went on to meet my contract, whom I probably just saved from getting eaten by Draugh. Had I not saved him, he probably wouldn't have even taken me seriously. He scoffed at the fact that the notorious Dark Brotherhood would send a kid to take the contract, but at the same time, he had to recognize my talent, for no ordinary child could do what I just did.

Anyway, my contract's name is Amaund Motierre. He's from Cyrodil, and he wants me to kill a lot of people. However, all these murders I'm to carry out work towards a common goal, my primary contract. He wants me to kill Titus Mede the Second, the Emperor of Tamriel.

What an exciting prospect… Just the idea of doing something so grand makes me feel tingly… When was the last time I felt something like this? I mean, I'm a sick little bitch, murdering people literally makes me horny sometimes, but I haven't felt anything like this ever since I killed Grelod, my first true victim. To assassinate an Emperor, to hunt down a man who many consider unkillable, to commit a crime so heinous and unthinkable, to live forever in infamy… Just the here idea of it makes my groin tingly… How should I go about it? How will I be able to go about it? I've never been more excited about anything in my entire life.

He promised me a mountain of gold should I succeed, and even gave me an amulet as a reward forefront, an unique amulet which looks very valuable. What it is and where it's from, I do not know, but I'm always happy to receive stuff like this as payments. Not sure if I would be able to get away with keeping it though. It's not that pretty, so I wouldn't wear it personally…

I can't wait to tell Astrid about this contract. This is going to be something special.

Evening Star, 15th, 4E 201

You won't believe how happy Astrid was to hear the news of our next contract. Yes, "our". We have many targets, and I doubt I'll be the only one doing the killing. I'll probably need the help of my brothers and sisters as well, but make no mistake about it. Emperor Titus Mede the Second is mine, and mine alone. As for the planning? Well, I'll leave the technical stuff to my superiors.

As for now, I'll be traveling to Riften to get the amulet sold. There's only one person Astrid trusts with recognizing its value and getting it sold safely and that's Delvin Malloy. Lucky for me, I'm already acquainted with the Guild so I probably won't need to do much convincing to have him apprise it. While I'm at it, I might as well bring some gifts to my friends at the Ratway while I'm there. After all, I am technically part of their guild, even though I don't do much work for them.

Well, I have a long road ahead of me, so might as well start packing and walking.

Evening Star, 16th, 4E 201

Weather has been dreadful, so our little roundabout trip to Riften is gonna take a while. Me and Sofia settled down to rest in an old, abandoned cottage in the forest. While training my shots here, I learned a nifty little trick that is sure to be proven useful on my future journeys. You see, a good shot isn't just a question of "where", but also when. A well-timed shot can be used to interrupt enemy's attack and even disarm them. Targeting their feet can also knock them off their feet if done at the right time. I've always had trouble with adults with big scary weapons, some of which weigh even more than my own freaking body, so this is really, REALLY going to be useful for me.

I also have something little more disappointing to tell you, my sweetest diary. I caved and drank a bottle of Skooma… I had to, it was just so inviting. I was already starting to feel a lot better, but once I saw the bottle on the corpse of a highwayman… I just had to gulp it all down. It made all the pain and headache go away, it felt good. I know I shouldn't have done it, because I know that all those symptoms are just going to kick back and come in stronger… I also know that I can't afford this kind of lifestyle long-term, but… I had to taste that sweet, intoxicating Moon Sugar nectar on my lips… It had never tasted better… Will you forgive me?

Well, anyway, hopefully I'll make it to Riften by tomorrow.

Evening Star, 17th, 4E 201

On the way to Riften I heard something nearby. People were fighting in the woods so I took it upon myself to investigate. Turned out there was a giant attacking an Orc stronghold. It didn't make much sense to me. I thought Giants are supposed to be peaceful. I can't imagine them being aggressors in situations like this. They looked like they needed help, so I took it upon myself to try my aimed shots on one of these giants… No doubt being able to disarm that massive club off its hand saved one Orc's life.

If there's one thing that I've learned on my travels about Orcs, it's that they really don't like outsides, so it was kind of surprising to have one of them approach me from inside the walls. These guys apparently need help, even though some of them might not want to admit it. This woman intended on performing some kind of ritual to Malacath and just needed few ingredients. Lucky for her, I happened to have both on me already.

So, we went to consult the chief of this stronghold, Yamarz, and despite his stern objections, we initiated the ritual. It turned out to be a successful one, and Malacath himself spoke to Yamarz. He was given a task, something about going to kill some giant somewhere to get rid of the curse that has befallen upon this stronghold.

I thought that was the end of my part here, but boy oh boy was I mistaken.

When I was about to take my leave, Yamarz came to me, and he has the absolute gall to blame me for all of this. Is this guy for real? Is he really their Chief? Like come on, how pathetic is this guy? He weighs three to four times as much as I do and still he has to beg for a little girl to help him kill a giant in front of your own tribe? Yeah, he wants me to help him take down the giant, probably because he's too much of a weakling to do it himself. But why would I? It's his fight, not mine. Malacath specifically gave this task to him, not me. I feel insulted just entertaining the idea of helping this loser. How dare he.

What waste of time…

Evening Star, 18th, 4E 201

Delvin told me everything that I need to know about the amulet. It belongs to a member of Elder council from Cyrodiil. Which one of them, no idea. It could be that mister Motierre himself is part of this council, but I have no real evidence to support this idea. Suffice to say, this serves as an adequate advance payment for the size of task we've been given, and Delvin was even happy to take it from our hands in return for what he calls a "future favor" for our lovely mistress herself.

It was so nice to see Brynjolf once in a while. I was a little horny when I got to the Flagon, and couldn't help but to blush in front of him. Too bad for me, he's kind of thick, or perhaps just hard to get. I would love to have a taste of his cock… Sadly I had to leave with my desires left unfulfilled though. What a shame, it would've made for a nice birthday present.

Oh, I promise you, one day I will make that hunk mine even if it's just for one night. I'll seduce him one way or another…

Oh well, time to get back to Falkreath I guess. I hope Astrid and Nazir have some actual work for me.

Evening Star, 22nd, 4E 201

If there's one thing that I've learned about slavery in Skyrim, it's that incompetence is a trait commonly found within people who orchestrate it. How else would I have made it out from pretty much every situation I've gotten myself into? In a world that made sense, or in a world where I wasn't actually a Vampire, I wouldn't have ever made it out from the hands of first bandits that kidnapped me. Well, today I got reminded that not every single bandit and slaver in this province is an incompetent fool. Fortunately though, my journey didn't end today.

On my way to Falkeath, we were ambushed by a small group of mercenaries, three of them in fact. They were slavers, and they knew me by name and were able to identify me based on my appearance alone. Apparently, there's someone out there who's willing to pay a generous price to have me as his sex slave. I could tell simply by looking at their armor, their weapons and the other gear that they had on them that these guys were trouble and not a foe I could escape so easily.

They did only make one real mistake, and that was underestimate me by facing me head on. Me and Sofia were able to defeat them today, but this is a very concerning development. Maybe they'll send even more or even stronger men next time around? I may be on top of the food chain, even above common mortals, but… That doesn't mean that I don't have my own predators. Dawnguard and the Vigilants want me dead for what they consider to be a crime of daring to be a Vampire, and now there's someone out there who's willing to pay real money to turn me into their fuck puppet? My life just keeps getting better and better.

But I digress, because I didn't want to write just to bitch and moan about how dangerous Tamriel is for a young and pretty female adventurer, but to rather talk about more exciting things. While I was on my trip to Riften, Astrid was working nonstop on creating a plan for our assassination. We have plenty of targets and a detailed plan of how we can kill the Emperor, and it's time to take the first shot and put the plan into motion.

Vittoria Vici must die by my hand.

She's the Emperor's first cousin, which makes her a great target of bringing real attention to this province. She's going to be marrying soon, and the marriage has huge political ramifications. My job is to kill her at her own wedding to send a message to Titus Mede the Second. Basically, we want chaos.

Nazir also gave me some new secondary contracts to worry about which in no way are related to the matter of assassinating the Emperor.

I'm still unsure about how to go with the murder, but luckily I have few days ahead of me for planning. I will only have a one chance, and I have to take this chance while she's addressing her guests. It would be delicious to actually stab her while she's delivering a speech, but I'm not sure how realistic it would be to accomplish something that bold. There's no way I could actually get away with something like that. Shooting her from high up would perhaps be easier in terms of being able to escape without being seen, but that's boring.

Well, I'll worry about how to go about it after I've actually surveyed the area.

Evening Star, 25th, 4E 201

Oh, how I have missed that feeling of actually enjoying murder.

It was a perfect crime, if I may say so myself. I was able to hide on the balcony and just wait. I determined that it would be safe enough. I was there waiting before the ceremony had even started, while people were still doing preparations and setting up guards… I did wait, patiently…

Then, she came and she stood in front of me talking to the crowd. She was so happy, everyone was so happy, everything was going perfectly for them… And then I drove my dagger straight through her heart. The screams of horror echoed in the temple, and the heartbreaking cry of her husband was like music to my ears. The idea of getting caught in the act had me all wet and tingly, not because I wanted it, but because the fear just made it all the better… But I knew, it couldn't happen. If I'm going to have my head on a chopping block, at least let me first kill the Emperor.

With the help of some blood magic I've worked really hard on perfecting, I embraced the shroud of darkness to turn myself invisible before anyone could see me. For anyone attending the wedding, it must've looked like a phantom took his life. More importantly, I made it look like a proper murder. Making it look like an accident would've been so boring, now wouldn't it?

Then, I just jumped off the balcony past the guards who were running around and up the tower, and I walked away. Yes, walked. Slowly, quietly, grinning ear to ear… I didn't have to run, because nobody was actually coming after me. Didn't want my feet to make too much noise either. Sure, they were looking for me, but they weren't coming my way. Besides, I wanted to hear the aftermath… It was the perfect storm. Guards were struggling to understand what had happened and fingers were being pointed at one another, even the poor husband was being accused despite being oh so heartbroken and devastated…

At that point I knew, I had gotten away with a murder more delicious that any of my previous atrocities combined.

I live for moments like this… The pleasure I feel from the sins I commit is better than anything else in the world… Tastier than blood of any mortal, more satisfying than sex, more intoxicating that Skooma… Murder is my perfect drug.

Laughing, sighing and blushing from pleasure, I let my emotions go as soon as I got out from the city. I feel so fucking alive, and most importantly, I have taken a huge leap towards accomplishing my ultimate goal of killing the Emperor.

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