JoS/Henriette/14th Journal - Humiliation

Midyear, 1st, 4E 202

Oh you who I share all my deepest and dirtiest secrets to, do you know what creeps me out the most in the entire world? The way that the Courier just knows where I live despite it being one of the most guarded secrets in this part of Skyrim. It's a very good thing that he's just about the most secretive guy in the world, and that the people who deliver the letters to me through him don't actually know where I live. So… It's fine for now I guess.

So anyway, I got a bunch of letters today. The guy must've been looking for me for a long time. I usually get a letter just once or twice a week, and most of them from my friends and allies showing concern over some of my transgressions. Nazir, for example, is not a big fan of the fact that I am making a name for myself. An assassin of the Dark Brotherhood is supposed to be secretive and move in the shadows, not be well known to everyone and their mother, but I can't help it, it's not my fault. I try to tell him, but he always just jokingly says that maybe I need a spanking.

Amongst this batch were actually three letters that piqued my interest, and three that I pretty much just discarded into my fireplace immediately after reading them. First one of them was from Brynjolf in the Thieves Guild. Sadly, it wasn't a love letter. Mercer is apparently very disappointed in me and my lack of involvement, and he wants me to do some work for them once in a while. They have some specific job in mind, but he didn't go into details in the letter. That's the least interesting letter of the three.

The next one was from Delphine. I had almost forgotten about her… But looks like she hasn't forgotten about me. I still seem to occupy a healthy portion of her headspace despite the fact that she clearly, for some reason, still expects me to prove myself to her. She's delusional, I swear. Anyway, her tone seems to have changed slightly, as she's apologizing in the letter, saying that she just needs to be cautious, she has a lot of enemies and she doesn't know who to trust. She says that she trusts me, but she's just naturally skeptical. She also says that she really needs the help of a Dragonborn, like she really does.

Alright, alright, I'll hear her out… But not before I make her wait a little bit longer. I kind of have to make her wait because the last letter commands my immediate attention. It didn't come from a friend of mine or anyone I even know. Yet, it managed to be the most interesting of them all… In all the wrong ways though. I have a bad feeling about it.

It came from an unnamed, high ranking "someone" who's with the Empire, someone from Solitude, or perhaps he could even be a politician. The letter said in no uncertain terms that he doesn't just know who I am, but also WHAT I am and about some of the things I've done, and that he has the power to turn the Empire against me if he so wishes. He's looking to blackmail me, but he doesn't want money, oh no… He wants something else, a deal of sorts… I have no idea what that kind of deal would even include, but something tells me that I'm not in any kind of room to negotiate here. Odds will be stacked against me, that's for sure.

He wants to meet me to discuss the terms of this deal inside the East Empire Company warehouse. I have until next Fredas to meet him, which is a week from now, and it also stresses that I must go alone. If I fail to meet him by then or fail to meet any of the other demands lined in this letter, I won't be able to walk freely amongst the public ever again. Well, I won't be waiting until the deadline. The letter can be used as a writ of passage to the person guarding the door to the warehouse.

I'll mount Shadowmere as soon as the sun sets and ride to Solitude. I told Sofia and Serana that I have an errand to go on and that I must go alone. I trust them with taking care of this place while I'm gone instead of just fooling around.

Midyear, 2nd, 4E 202

I arrived in Solitude just after sunrise. Basically, I made it to my destination in one night. Yeah, my steed is one fast stud, and I'm very proud of him. I had some butterflies in my stomach when I finally approached the guard. I think he recognized me, and simply said that I have something to show him. After showing him the letter, he took something from his pocket.

He said that I must wear a blindfold and that it's absolutely required, as I'm not allowed to see who his affiliates are. I resisted at first, but he reminded me that I don't want to be making enemies here, that I have to do as I'm told. I let him pull a black leather blindfold over my eyes, which he then proceeded to tighten in place with a sturdy lock made of durable Nordic steel. He yanked it, testing that it was properly on me, and it sure was… It wouldn't budge, and not even a slightest ray of light could penetrate it.

Then, I was finally escorted to meet the man who wanted to see me.

I didn't recognize him by his voice, but I know that he's an Imperial. He has to be, judging by the tone of his voice and the way he talks. He welcomed me, and he was very polite about it. He also complimented me on my appearance, which at the same time weirded me out a little, as well as made me blush. In his words, he had only heard of his underlings about how I look, and that I exceeded his expectations. It was at that point that I kind of already knew what the price for shutting these people up would be, and my heart started beating faster and faster because of it.

And then, what he said made me shiver and skip a beat. He came up to me, standing right next to me, telling me that he also knows that I killed the Emperor. He said that he has all the evidence to prosecute me and that with one snap of a finger he could make sure I would never see the light of day ever again.

But then, he surprisingly said something else. He complimented me on my accomplishment. He said that he didn't really even care about the Emperor being dead, that it was probably for the best of all of Tamriel this nincompoop was butchered like the pig he was. Yes, that's what he really called the late Emperor.

But someone like me doesn't have to die or rot away in a prison, not according to him anyway. He sees me as an useful tool. He wants me to do his bidding and carry out all of his orders, whatever they may be. I am to follow his every wish like a slave and without any objections whatsoever. I will not receive anything in return, and instead, I will simply be able to continue my life in freedom and even pursue my own goals, as long as I honor my deal and the rules given to me by him. Refusal wasn't an option.

His first job to me was simple. There are a lot of employees in this rat-infested warehouse, guards and laborers alike. They work long hours and long days away from their families with very little comfort and very little pay. They however had done some exemplary work as of late, and in his opinion, they deserved a little reward from their hard work. He wanted me to do the rewarding.

So, a gangbang I thought. That's always a little tiring and demanding, but it requires little work on my part, so it's all easy… Except that my assumption was only half correct. He wanted to really put me into work, and make it as hard as possible for me. First, he made me strip buck naked. So, I did. I went about it kind of slowly, and it was very embarrassing too. I mean, never mind the fact that this pervert is in front of me ordering me around, who knows who else was there around me? There could've been three, or there could've been two dozen men around me…

Then, as soon as I got rid of my panties, this man was standing behind me and took me by my wrists, locked them together with tight cuffs behind my back. He forcefully pressed my face against the cold and stinking floor, and I could hear jingling of a jewel in his hands. He locked a piercing with a Soul Gem to my clitoris, delighted by the fact that I had already been pierced prior to this. Saved them some trouble not having to pierce me, he said. He also had two additional powerful Soul Gems to use on me. He stuck the first one inside my butthole, and the next one in my cunny, in a very quick succession. I had gotten a little horny at that point, not gonna lie. I have masochistic tendencies after all. Because of this, the insertions were fast and effortless.

"Now", he said, "let's put that mouth of yours into good use."

Yes, that's correct, my dear diary. They weren't going to just pin me down and do me like some animal. No, I had to suck them all off, one by one, dick after dick, each of which was muskier and smellier than the previous one, and let's not forget, I was still blindfolded and handcuffed throughout this whole ordeal. Some of them were happy to just have me suck and lick them, but others went as far as grabbing my face, grabbing me by my hair, trying to plunge their cocks as deep as possible, all the way down my throat.

It wasn't easy doing it, not easy at all. Giving a blowjob isn't exactly hard, I know how to satisfy a man, but when I can't even use my hands to help and can barely move, it becomes so much harder. Just having the first five finish in my mouth took such a long time. I wonder, were they trying to drag it out on purpose?

I was already so done, but I was afraid to say it. Then this Imperial bastard told me I wasn't even close to being done. Not even halfway through, or even halfway to being halfway done. I felt like tearing up at that point, but those tears were a result of humiliation and anger, rather than defeat and fear… And the from that point onward things became even harder than before.

There was a reason I was given plugs and piercing that had Soul Gems attached to them. He activated them using his magic to vibrate them oh so softly. I was already on my knees, but now I just felt like collapsing forward and laying down. I wanted relief from those damned plugs so badly, I wanted to cum, I wanted to touch myself, grab them by their hilts and jerk them in and out of my holes, but he never let me go over the edge, and nobody even touched them. He never let me climax. He just kept ordering me, kept telling me to continue sucking those dicks. More men came, more men stuffed their cocks into my face. I was so god damned dripping wet, I was constantly twitching, tossing my hips around slightly because they just couldn't stay still. I wanted to bend over, I wanted to get fucked for real. I kept moaning between slurping those shafts. When they pulled out, I begged them to let me cum, but they didn't care. They just continued abusing me and the worst part was I had no idea how long it was going to last.

When they were finally done, there was just the man orchestrating this event left. He slapped his cock across my face and taunted me, asking me to beg for it. I was so full of lust, I had probably never sounded so lewd in my life. I couldn't even talk properly, I probably sounded like some damned halfwit, but I did what he asked me to. I begged for his cock, I begged him to please use me, please relieve me of this agonizing pleasure. I wanted nothing more than to cum after him keeping me constantly on the edge. I said please, I repeated it so many times, I begged him to please fuck me, said that I'd do anything, I'll be his willing slave, he's my master, I'd really do anything just to feel his mighty cock fill me with its love…

He fulfilled my selfish desire. He removed the plug from my cunny, and he bent me over. Then, with one quick push into my folds, he finally made me feel it. With one mighty thrust of his raging, pulsating cock he finally gave it to me. I swear, no toy or a plug can never beat the real thing. The way it slides inside me with ease, the way it twitches with joy, it's enough to make any sane girl mad. He made me cum so quickly without any effort…

He fucked me silly. Oh, he fucked me so good. It was simply the best. His magic kept vibrating the plug in my ass and the jewel too. The cuffs didn't bother me at all and honestly, the blindfold just made it all so much better. I could concentrate only on my amplified pleasure and nothing else. It was like all of my other senses had dulled out into nothingness and that he had caught me in a continuous climax. I moaned so much, so loud too. I couldn't shut up for a moment, and I could hardly catch my breath. I think I even squirted all of my love juice all over his cock.

I wished it could've gone for longer, it was honestly just that amazing, but he was clearly horny beyond reason too. He was so rock-hard, his mating instinct had taken him over and he wanted to come inside me. He filled me with such explosive power, he grabbed into me so tightly and pulled my ass towards him. It was such a long and magnificent ejaculation. He then leaned closer to my ear, and he whispered compliments to my ear. "Good job", I remember him saying. He said that I'm not free to go, but I've had a long night and a very exhausting morning to top it off. My body just gave up and I passed out in his arms.

When I woke up later, I was inside a rather luxurious room built on the upper levels of this warehouse, onlooking everything else inside this complex. All of the restraints as well as the blindfold had been removed and they had even moved my items there while I was out cold. He was with me too, but he's wearing a mask on his face to hide his identity. He's pretty damn tall though, so he should be recognizable by this factor alone. He's like what, seven feet tall? Like, where do you ever meet Imperials who are that tall? I'm guessing he's somewhere in his forties. He's quite a muscular guy too… Wide shoulders, large back, strong muscles around his arms and legs… Obviously influential and rich too. Yeah, a real alpha male. Makes me wonder, who is he really?

He said that I did a good job earlier today and that what I do with his baby is my choice, but he personally doesn't want to see it. I guess I will go forward with my standard procedure then… He also said to wait for the courier, because he has more in store for me. When? He didn't tell. His next job to me was to simply stay out of trouble and stay safe.

So, I got out from that place, and I decided to walk up to the city of Solitude. I should maybe spend a day he, since I'm not in a position to adventure. I'm still feeling a little groggy, so I'm gonna lie down for a little bit.