JoS/Lyra/1st Journal - The Beginning
Last Seed, 17th, 4E 201
I can't believe what's happened to me. It was so horrible. I can barely write about it without crying. Toady, I was playing in my room when I heard loud noises outside our house. Then I heard them kick down the front door. I cracked open the door and stated watching from my room and trying to be quiet. The men were all Imperial soldiers and told Daddy that he was under arrest. He started arguing with them. I was trying to be real quiet but I made a noise when they hit him and the soldiers found me too. One of them said I would make a nice bonus. I didn't understand what he meant by that.
Daddy's hands were bound and he started yelling at the guards not to take me, but they just hit him again. I cried as they put him in the back of a carriage. Another soldier grabbed me and took me to a different carriage. But I got to ride up front on a solder's lap. I asked him what they were going to do to Daddy and if they would let him go, but he didn't answer.
As soon as we started moving, the Imperial soldier started putting his hands all over me. I tried wriggle around and get him to stop, but he just joked to the soldier sitting next to him that he liked it when they fought back.
The soldier took one hand off me, so I thought maybe he would stop. But then things got even worse. He forced it down the front of my dress and started feeling my flat chest. His other hand moved underneath my dress too and started rubbing my leg. It felt so wrong.
The man kept touching me until the carriage stopped in Helgen. Then another soldier walked up and grabbed me, telling the other one that he had dibs on me. I was scared, hoping they would just let daddy and me go. But they didn't.
They started unloading the prisoners and the new soldier carried me over and dropped me onto a pile of hay. I barely had time to flinch before he reached down and ripped off my dress. Then the next part was so awful. I was too scared to move or even think about running away. I just laid there and watched as the soldier removed his armor and then he climbed on top of me.
It was so gross feeling his naked body rubbing up against mine. He was sweaty and smelled too. Then I felt his thing against my pussy and he started to push into me. I must have started crying out because I heard Daddy yelling at the guards. I couldn't see anything past the guard on top of me, but I could hear someone drawing a sword. Then something dropped to the ground and Daddy wasn't yelling anymore.
I just laid there and cried as the soldier raped me. He kept going harder and harder until I felt something shooting into me. I realized it must have been the man's sperm, at least that's what Daddy told me it was called once. He never told me it would feel so gross and slimy though. It started dripping out of me as soon as the soldier pulled out of me.
When he got off, I looked over and started crying even harder when I saw Daddy. There was blood all around him. I stood up and ran over to him, but it was too late, his body wasn't moving.
Another guard laughed and told me that I was all theirs now and would be used by all the Imperial soldiers who wanted me. That was when a loud roar came from the sky and everyone started yelling. I looked up and saw the biggest creature I'd ever seen flying through the air and land on the tower across the road. Archers started shooting at it and all the prisoners started to run. The next thing I knew, one of the Stormcloak prisoners was guiding me into another tower, away from the creature. I knew it must have been a dragon and I heard others yelling it as well. I ran as fast as I could.
When we got to the tower, I felt something wet and looked down to see the Soldier's cum dripping down my legs. In the commotion, I had forgotten everything that had just happened. Before I had much time to think about it though, the dragon broke down the wall above us and blew fire into the tower. He barely missed me!
That Stormcloak soldier helped me escape. His name is Ralof. First we got away from the dragon and then he led me through the Keep and out of the city. If it weren't for him, I probably wouldn't have made it out alive. Maybe that would have been better. Daddy is gone and I have nowhere to go. It's so awful.
For now, I'm staying with Ralof's sister and her family in Riverwood. She fed me and gave me something decent to wear, but I don't know where to go. I don't want to end up like some of those kids on the street begging to be adopted.
But there is one thing I do know. I hate the Imperials. Daddy didn't like them either and now I see why. Ralof said I should join the Stormcloaks so maybe I'll do that. I don't know why he thought a little girl would make a good soldier, but maybe he just saw how angry I was. They killed my father and now I just want to make them pay.
Last Seed, 23rd, 4E 201
I've been staying around Riverwood for the past week. Raulof's sister, Gerdur and her family are really nice and she runs the mill with her husband, Hod. Their son Frodnar is a little older than me and keeps trying to cheer me up. He really hates the Imperials, so that's something we have in common at, least.
I told Gerdur I wanted a bow and quiver of arrows and she got them for me. She didn't like the idea at first but then I started crying and telling her how daddy and me would go hunting together, so she got them for me. I met a hunter like Daddy, too. He's an elf named, Faendal. He even started to train me in archery. It was really nice of him, but it reminded me of Daddy too and I started crying afterwards.
Now that I have a bow and arrow, I feel a lot safer traveling around by myself. I don't think Gerdur likes me going off without anyone protecting me, but whatever. I went to Whiterun to talk to the Jarl about sending guards to protect Riverwood from a dragon attack. The Jarl was kind of scary to talk to, but I guess he liked me because he also wanted me to talk to his court wizard about getting some tablet from that creepy place called Bleak Falls Barrow. It seemed a little weird, I don't know why he thought I'd be interested. I remember seeing that place for the first time in the distance high on a mountain when I was out hunting with Daddy. He told it was dangerous and I should never to go there. I don't know why the Jarl thought a little kid would be any help, but the court wizard made it seem like the Jarl sends lots of strange travelers to him, so maybe he just tells that to everyone.
I'm still staying with Gerdur for now, but I'm going to get better at archery and make a little money from the animals I hunt around Riverwood. Then I'm going to Windhelm and maybe even join the Stormcloaks. I know I'm a little young to be a soldier, but I'll do anything I can to fight the Imperials. Gerdur keeps trying to talk me out of it. I don't think she believes I'll actually go and talked about trying to get someone to adopt me. But I don't want anyone to adopt me, I just want to get revenge on the people who killed my daddy.
Last Seed, 24th, 4E 201
I may have mentioned revenge a few too many times. Gerdur and her husband, Hod both sat me down to talk to me about it. They say that getting revenge is bad, but I don't see how. They also told me I'm too young to be fighting a bunch of grown men. Maybe they're right, but I'll do whatever I have to do. I told them I'd keep training really hard. I'm already better at the bow than most older kids. A lot better, actually. I'm even a better aim than most adults. They just want me to stay with them. I think they might be planning on officially adopting me.
Last Seed, 27th, 4E 201
In the last few days, I've been doing lots of hunting and training with Faendhal. He's really impressed at the progress I've made. I was able to sell some furs and meat to the shop in town called, Riverwood Traders. They mentioned a stolen golden claw or something while I was there. I guess someone had broken into their shop and that's all they took. The shop owner said the robber went to Bleak Falls Barrow. It seems like lots of people need to go there but nobody wants to. Why do they think I'd want to go there?
Anyways, I'm still planning on leaving to join the Stormcloaks. I just need to make a little more money selling furs so I can afford to pay for a carriage to Windhelm and food and lodging when I get there. I've already bought a good stock of arrows so I shouldn't run out for a while. Gerdur has started keeping a closer eye on me and keeps warning me that it's too dangerous for a little girl to be going off alone in Skyrim. But if she had it her way, Faendhal wouldn't even be training me. I can hunt, most little girls can't hunt. But my daddy taught me how to shoot a bow when I was 5 and the stuff I've learned from Faendahl should be more than enough to help me protect myself. I'll take on anyone, I don't care. Nobody is going to stop me.
Last Seed, 30th, 4E 201
I'm off. Well, I pretty much snuck out of town so nobody would try and stop me. I did leave a note for Gerdur and Hod, thanking them for taking care of me. But I'm going to join the Stormcloaks and fight to avenge my daddy's death. I made enough to be able to afford to pay for a carriage to Windhelm and I should have enough to stay at the inn. But I have a bedroll and tent too if I can't. And I can always hunt and sell furs when I need to. Sure, I'm scared to go off on my own, but my daddy told me you can't rely on anyone to take care of you. I think he meant that for when I'm older, but he's not around anymore so I think it counts for now too.