Dirty Talk/Three Brats/June 17th, 2021/After the "Doctor's" Appointment
I've got to be honest, I was a little worried how this whole arrangement was going to pan out after mom said she wanted to mold and guide me, but honestly, it turned out alright and not that scary in the end. I mean, at one point, I was fearful that she could make me do something as extreme as I saw that older girl do. I went from figuratively crapping my pants to being overall satisfied with myself.
I'm still not sure about how I feel about all those cameras and them filming me. I don't mind it being for personal use only, but if something like that were to be posted on the internet . . . surely they wouldn't upload it anywhere . . . right? I mean, that's not what I want, and it's illegal anyway. Someone could end up in jail…
I'm still not sure about how I feel about all those cameras and them filming me. I don't mind it being for personal use only, but if something like that were to be posted on the internet . . . surely they wouldn't upload it anywhere . . . right? I mean, that's not what I want, and it's illegal anyway. Someone could end up in jail…
It's probably in my best interest to lie. I'm not sure how I'd feel about him knowing or how mom would feel if I shared this secret without her permission. Sure, he was my first, but on the other hand, would that not just complicate things even more?
I think we'll need to talk about that in the future. Maybe tomorrow… Or just think about it myself some more…
I think we'll need to talk about that in the future. Maybe tomorrow… Or just think about it myself some more…
Care to fetch me a glass of Pommac?
Just kidding, I'll get your lazy ass one. Maybe you deserve to be pampered at least once in every blue moon.
I still have no idea if I should tell him about today. I mean, how would he even react?
Everything's good and peaceful!
After everything that happened today, I have to admit, I'm feeling it a little tonight… It's a good thing I have this wonderful man to satisfy my OWN needs…
Think he's up for it himself, considering how deep he's tonguing me, and how firmly he's grabbing my ass through my jeans…
Think he's up for it himself, considering how deep he's tonguing me, and how firmly he's grabbing my ass through my jeans…
Yeah, I mean … the problem is that I'm really, really not sure how he'd react. He's a product of this village and no stranger to taking advantage of Star-Bearers, but that was when he was a child himself and later a teenager. It made sense for him to approach children and youngsters his age with romantic and sexual intentions, but from what I've understood, he hasn't actually approached a child ever since then. In that sense, there lies a huge question-mark over the topic…
Would he be okay with Emilia being a Star-Bearer, and on top of that, MY girl to be groomed?
I'm not even sure if he finds pedophilia morally acceptable. Like, I met him when he was twenty, when I was fresh out of my eighteenth birthday. It was by accident; he was "dating" this girl her age at the time … that is if you can even call it dating. I mean, she wasn't a girlfriend. She was a "slave". Like me, he was into BDSM, and it was actually in Stockholm's BDSM circles where we hit it off as fellow doms. I took an interest in his little "slave", while he found the idea of finding a woman who had similar tastes to him to be hot. After we fell in love and started going out, he kind of settled down and started being more career and family-oriented. He may not have a problem with me continuing to be into this stuff, but he hasn't so much as spoken about his own thoughts about the subject in years. The point is, I really don't know if he's into children. He wasn't when I met him, I think… At least he's never outright admitted or denied it.
If he is, well okay, that's not bad, but if he isn't … well, there's no way for me to walk back what I did, and even though Emilia herself was okay and happy with our arrangement … how would you even begin to explain that to someone who finds pedophilia unacceptable? I mean, it's not exactly easy to convince such a person that the child DID consent when they firmly believe such a thing is impossible for a child to consent to.
…And then there's the whole issue of this happening within the family…
One way or another, I have to get to the bottom of this. I need to find out whether or not Ludwig would be okay with such a thing without actually asking if he'd be okay with it. I can't be straightforward. What if he'd be mad? What if he'd find this something utterly unacceptable? I'd hate that… I love our entire family…
…I think I have a perfect idea for how to approach this…
Would he be okay with Emilia being a Star-Bearer, and on top of that, MY girl to be groomed?
I'm not even sure if he finds pedophilia morally acceptable. Like, I met him when he was twenty, when I was fresh out of my eighteenth birthday. It was by accident; he was "dating" this girl her age at the time … that is if you can even call it dating. I mean, she wasn't a girlfriend. She was a "slave". Like me, he was into BDSM, and it was actually in Stockholm's BDSM circles where we hit it off as fellow doms. I took an interest in his little "slave", while he found the idea of finding a woman who had similar tastes to him to be hot. After we fell in love and started going out, he kind of settled down and started being more career and family-oriented. He may not have a problem with me continuing to be into this stuff, but he hasn't so much as spoken about his own thoughts about the subject in years. The point is, I really don't know if he's into children. He wasn't when I met him, I think… At least he's never outright admitted or denied it.
If he is, well okay, that's not bad, but if he isn't … well, there's no way for me to walk back what I did, and even though Emilia herself was okay and happy with our arrangement … how would you even begin to explain that to someone who finds pedophilia unacceptable? I mean, it's not exactly easy to convince such a person that the child DID consent when they firmly believe such a thing is impossible for a child to consent to.
…And then there's the whole issue of this happening within the family…
One way or another, I have to get to the bottom of this. I need to find out whether or not Ludwig would be okay with such a thing without actually asking if he'd be okay with it. I can't be straightforward. What if he'd be mad? What if he'd find this something utterly unacceptable? I'd hate that… I love our entire family…
…I think I have a perfect idea for how to approach this…