JoS/Kanna/20th Journal - The Laughing Vvardvark, pt. 2

Sun's Dawn, 25th, 3E 428

(By Aliya)

I'm sorry to say, but my experiences on the first night of work were nothing special. That's not to say my day was objectively "bad", since I met my quota comfortably and all, but it's like, even though the men who enjoyed my "services" made me feel good, there was nothing special about the sex I had. Everything, even the compliments, felt borderline emotionless, and utterly meaningless. There was no passion or love involved because every encounter was nothing but a transaction, and I couldn't connect with my dates on a personal level due to being merely an object, a product to be used and enjoyed. As much should've been expected from the start since I am nothing but a slave in some rich cunt's whorehouse, but can you blame me for wanting a little more from all this?

The only outlier from mediocrity was the encounter I had around one in the morning with a special kind of "customer". I had gathered a small crowd of eight people to watch me dance on a pole half-naked, which was quite a feat considering how badly I sucked at it. Then again, it probably wasn't my dancing skills that had them gathered around me, but rather, my looks.

One dapper young gentleman stood out from the rest with how he carried himself, and I could tell from the get-go that this Dunmer was not like the others. He was looking at me like he knew me, which also made me interested in him. It was the first time during that whole night that I felt like I wanted to pick my customer, but fearing punishment, I kept my mouth shut, knowing the choice wasn't mine to make. Still, I did something I hadn't done to anyone until that moment, and blew him an air kiss with a wink mid-dance.

Unfortunately, while it looked like the guy I wanted was ready to purchase me for a private session, my stunt made another member of the crowd seethe with jealousy. He was an older nobleman, and he protested what I had just done, claiming that he had decided to use my services way before that "well-dressed nobody" got into the play. For whatever reason, the guard keeping check of me was on his side, and decided I should go with the old man instead. It made me want to sigh because I had been denied a date with someone who was actually hot, but fearing even that could be seen as a sign of incompliance, I just forced a smile as I got off the stage, ready to go with the old man.

"Hold on", the youngster said, raising his wallet. "I'll outbid him."

I didn't even know that was allowed! Supposedly it was, but the nobleman didn't take it lying down, asking the youngster: "Who in Vivec's name do you think you are?" He then raised the stakes even more, ready to pay double the standard rate, but the youngster wasn't about to be outdone. He announced he was willing to pay triple, practically shoving the wallet in the guard's hands, and the old man could only scoff. He gave up on me, saying he'd have his fun in the coming days regardless, and left mumbling something about "fucking tourists" and "youngsters these days". Then, as the young gentleman threw his arm over my shoulder and announced it was time to go, I sighed out of relief and nodded for him.

Finally inside his room, I stood still in anticipation by the door I had just closed, nervously rubbing my hands together, and asked him: "What would you like me to do, sera?"

"Aliya, is it?" he asked, removing his vest and sitting down comfortably at the bed's edge. I was confused since I hadn't told him my name, but he really knew me, and knew me for a reason. "Name's Thalis, and I'm here on behalf of our patron."

Feeling like I could finally let my guard down, I crossed my arms and raised my eyebrow at him, smirking as I asked: "What? So you didn't hire me for my good looks after all?"

"Well, you certainly are every bit as charming and adorable as Aryon said you would be", he mumbled, with his eyes inspecting me everywhere from my bare thighs to my little budding tits. "But let's move on", he said, tapping the bed with his palm twice. "Sit down."

So, I sat down as he ordered. On his lap, face to face with him. I immediately went after his dress shirt, opening it up one button at a time, and while he didn't try to stop me, he was clearly confused by the whole situation.

"Hold on, I didn't come here for pleasure", he said, sounding defensive. He was clearly afraid to put his hands on me. "Seriously, we, no… you don't have to do this. I'm not even that kind of a man, I swear. I'm just here for - "

"Work, I know", I said, whispering into his ear. "So, what is it? Got a message, or want something from me?"

Since I was so close to him, he decided to whisper back. "Well, for starters… are you okay? I mean, after what Savile did to you yesterday…"

"I hated it, and the situation certainly feels hopeless", I said, clutching my slave collar.

"But Fast Eddie provided you with the keys, didn't he?" Thalis asked, smiling gently. "Aryon heard of yesterday too, and he's a little worried about your mental state. I guess we all underestimated the lengths that she-devil was willing to go to."

I just nodded slowly, not being able to say anything, smile, or even look him in the eyes.

"But since you have the keys, Aryon wants you to know that you can always abandon the mission", he continued, surprising me a little. "What I mean to say is, if this feels too insurmountable now, given what Savile did to you, you can just try to escape. Yesterday must've been traumatic for you, so… just saying, you have the option to declare this mission a failure, and no hard feelings on our patron's part if you do."

His suggestion got me thinking, and I certainly want to escape, but… doesn't that carry significant risks with it as well? If I get caught trying to escape, that's probably the last chance I'll ever get. Then, I'd be royally and inescapably fucked, and quite possibly enslaved for life, so I'd just doom myself by digging myself into a deeper hole. Granted, trying to assassinate Gothren carries the same risk as well, but my imperfect - and probably idiotic - line of thinking is… if I'm gonna take a big risk anyway, why not try to cause chaos on the way out? Why try to escape and abandon the mission when I can just do what I was sent to do here instead? Sure, the odds may be different, as the chances of me escaping are probably higher than my chances of successfully assassinating Gothren are, but I don't care anymore.

"Thanks for the offer", I said, finally cracking a smile, "but I will not abandon my duty. Not to Aryon, not to Azura, and certainly not to myself. I'll take my chances here."

"Somehow, I knew you'd say yes", Thalis said, smirking.

I giggled in response and gave him a long and loving kiss on his cheek, barely touching the side of his lip. I simultaneously touched his groin, and he was pitching quite a tent. My broad smile must've looked so fake and insincere, but it just amused me so, so damn much that despite everything he had said about not being "that kind of a man" and whatnot, he was rock-hard with a little preteen Altmer sitting on his lap! That's a tell-tale sign of a pedophile, and you can't convince me otherwise! "You'll help me, right?" I asked.

"H-huh? Y-yeah…" Thalis responded, looking distracted as I pried his belt open with one hand, all without breaking eye contact. "Well, given that you're still on board, fortunately for all of us, I've got to inform Aryon, but I think you should know what his plan is. First of all… h-hold on, what are you doing?"

Oh, what indeed? I got hold of his dick, got it out of his pants, and got to the floor, on my knees, with my face beside his junk. "Go on", I cooed, grabbing a firmer hold of his shaft, tapping and rubbing my fingers around it a little. "Don't mind me at all…"

"Aliya, we shouldn't", Thalis said. "I-I mean, I'm just here for work, and I'm not even into children, so - "

"Yet you paid so much to spend time with me", I said, jerking him off softly, making him gulp and sigh. It's like he secretly wanted me but didn't want to admit it. Still, even though I wasn't gonna stop teasing him sexually, I also understood the business he wanted to discuss was important. "So, what IS his plan, then?"

"Basically, after I inform Aryon that you're still on board, he'll gather his best troops to get ready to invade Tel Aruhn. The plan is for him to take advantage of the chaos the assassination is going to cause, take credit for Gothren's death, and stage a coup d'état." His voice was getting shaky, and his breath heavier. I could tell, he was feeling good, and was awfully distracted. He was even beginning to slur a little, but despite clearly feeling good, he also looked a little annoyed. "A lot of this hinges on you, you know… a-and you're going to… h-have to figure out an exact date a-and a time to murder Gothren, so… oh, for crying out loud! Are you even taking this seriously, Aliya?"

"From what I'm gathering", I replied, "if Aryon comes here while Gothren is still alive, the plan will fail. If I murder him without Aryon helping and backing me from the sidelines, the plan will also fail. Therefore… we must both play our parts simultaneously then, right?"

"Yeah, right", Thalis said and sighed, letting me continue playing with his prick. Having said what he wanted to hear, I then took it into my mouth, which surprised him a little. I mostly just played with his head at first, running my tongue clockwise across the glans, kissing and sucking it as I got increasingly ravenous. Like, I mostly was just doing this to amuse myself while he was trying to have a serious discussion, but I'm not gonna lie, I was also on a mission to make him feel great and cum all over my tongue! Still, given that I was capable of listening, despite acting all dumb and slutty with him, he didn't protest, and instead, asked me a question. "I'm guessing… you still have no idea how to actually go about the assassination, right?"

I shook my head and mumbled, "Nuh-uh." Well, tried to. Didn't quite sound like it with a cock in my mouth.

"T-that's fine", Thalis said, trying to stay on topic and ignore the fact that I was giving him a blowjob. "According to Eddie, Gothren frequents the brothel, so you'll probably have an opportunity to kill him on one of his visits here. Don't be afraid to use the tools given to you by Eddie to your advantage either, as they might prove useful with planning. Oh, and just like he'll be helping you from the inside… I'll be checking on you as often as I can, okay?"

I responded by giving him a peace sign of approval, all while moving my lips further and further down his shaft, enjoying the taste of his foreskin as I pulled on it, pushing my hand all the way to the back.

"That… really is all", he then said, laying his hands on both my shoulders, almost as if telling me to stop. He didn't actually push me, though, so I didn't. "I-I should be going now, so - "

"But I don't wanna go back to work", I complained, reaching for his clean-shaven balls as I took a break from sucking him. "The customers are mean and treat me awfully! I'd rather spend more time with you for a while longer…"

"But Aryon's expecting me to report back, and - "

"Guards will get suspicious if you leave so soon", I said, jerking off his drool-covered dick. "So we've got to do something…"

He signed, and finally buckled. "Fine, you s'wit…"

Despite sensing a bit of animosity and annoyance in his voice, I giggled playfully. "I guess you can just close your eyes if looking at a little kid makes you feel awkward", I teasingly said as I took his dick back in my mouth. That's not to say I was in a hurry to make him cum, though. Just as I know how to make men cum in a matter of mere minutes, I know equally well how to edge them out for a long time, all while maximizing their pleasure. I tried to be gentle through most of my blowjob and didn't move a whole lot to "jerk" him with my mouth, but when push came to shove, I sucked him hard, and I sucked him deep.

Still, as I slurped away on his cock, having a good time, he felt like he wanted to finish a bit faster than I would've allowed him to. He even got a little handsy with me, and pushed my head back into his groin as I was trying to pull away, thrusting a little bit forward as he teetered at the bed's edge. "Come on, I'm never gonna cum like this", he said annoyed, gesturing with his hand to do me harder. "So get on with it, girl. I've got a boat to catch. The guards won't get suspicious if I blast your face with cum."

I was disappointed - especially since I was hoping to eventually transition into vaginal intercourse - but took the hint and decided it was time to go hard. Didn't take long for him to pull out, aim his dick at my face, and jerk it to release a torrent of sperm into my open mouth. Most of it honestly missed, dripping off my cheeks and splashing onto my top, but I still caught a decent load with my tongue. The act, as short as it may have been, also left him panting for a short while as he gasped and sighed.

"I… I gave you what you wanted", he finally said, standing up and fixing his clothes. I giggled in response, saying something along the lines of, "I know you wanted it too", but he didn't comment on it. Instead, he just said: "I really need to get going now, but I'll be back as soon as I can. Stay strong, Aliya."

Hmmm, the way he said that… I've got to wonder, now that I've shown him I'm ready, willing, and able to please him sexually, maybe I was able to also plant a seed of curiosity in his head? Sure would be nice if he could spend more time with me on his future "dates" with me because I wasn't kidding about rather doing it with him than the regular customers. For starters, he doesn't treat me like a slave like the others do, and second… he's actually hot!

Oh, and the guards actually didn't get suspicious even though he didn't use up all the time he had allocated with me. I did have to return to work topless, though, because they didn't want me to wear a cum-stained top and didn't have a replacement, but I guess it's whatever. Helped me advertise my goods better while dancing, at least…

But that was yesterday.

I managed to share a few words with Fast Eddie today, mostly to confirm that the keys do indeed work, and to update him on what I discussed with Thalis. While Eddie can't give me pointers regarding how to actually go about assassinating Gothren, he did recommend trying to snoop around outside the prison cell a little to get a better view of the prison layout. Thalis mentioned something like that too, telling me not to be afraid to use the tools given to me, so I guess I'll see what I can do! It's obviously gonna be super risky for me - and Kanna, for that matter - to escape the cell, even if it's just momentarily, but we do have a plan for making it work.

In any case, despite the constant feeling of hopelessness weighing my mood down throughout the whole evening yesterday, I think I'm slowly, bit by bit, beginning to feel more optimistic about my chances here. Cautiously optimistic, but still optimistic nonetheless. Like, I think this is doable after all! Yes, it's super difficult and risky, but it's a risk I must take to not only change the status quo and break away from these chains, but to also remove the obstacle that stands in my way of fulfilling the Nerevarine prophecy. Kanna's positivity and constant attempts at trying to fire me up are also helping. Safe to say, I wouldn't feel as optimistic as I do without her by my side, and probably wouldn't be able to succeed, period. Really hope these feelings of positivity will also translate into success, as I do NOT want to overstay my welcome in this place…

Sun's Dawn, 27th, 3E 428

(By Aliya)

Between sleeping and working, I haven't gotten much time for reconnaissance and planning, but at least everything's been going smoothly so far on that front!

In addition to risking getting caught while on the job, the most significant hurdle for me to overcome was potentially having to explain my absence from the cell. After all, guards patrol the area regularly to ensure we're safe, which is to say, safely inside our prison cells like we're supposed to. That's why Kanna summoned Staada as a precaution and had her take my place in the cell. The problem obviously is that we don't really look alike, with our hair and skin color being totally different, and she's considerably shorter and smaller than me too, but she kinda sounds similar to me. That's why, as long as she could hide under a blanket or in the bathroom, she could just make her presence known by saying something, and the dumb guards would be none the brighter.

Now that I think about it in hindsight, it was an absolutely, idiotically stupid and dangerous plan that could've backfired HORRIBLY, but the one time a guard walked past our cell yesterday, coming to check if everything was good with us… it supposedly worked! Staada just yelled at the guard from the bathroom, saying something about fixing and combing her hair because she wanted to look presentable for the evening, and it fooled them!

A little side note, Kanna won't actually keep Staada summoned constantly and will only call upon her when she's absolutely needed. This isn't preferable, as summoning her puts a strain on Kanna's mana supplies, but hiding a whole-ass little girl in a closet is kinda difficult, so this is sadly necessary.

As far as actually mapping the prison complex goes, I've made solid progress, and have a good idea of the layout already. The prison isn't as busy as you'd think, and the long corridors and a lack of good hiding places also made my work a bit difficult, but for what it's worth, I was never in danger of getting caught. I think one slave could've heard me when I walked past her cell, but since she didn't actually see me, I think I can rest easy. And yeah, I needed to hide even from them. I'm sure most of them wouldn't rat me out if I explained myself, but you never know.

I haven't gotten the opportunity to explore the guard's quarters or the levitation shaft leading to the tower of Tel Ahurn yet, and I haven't found an exit or a possible escape route yet either, but Fast Eddie says there's a staff entrance inside the guard's quarters, so I know for sure there is at least a way out of here. The other two doors out of this place go through the Laughing Vvardvark itself, and while working at the brothel has helped me to also map that place perfectly, escaping through the brothel feels impossibly difficult.

The customer's entrance predictably leads to the underground district, and while it's just a simple "street" with some stores, workshops, and other services, it's also busy and heavily guarded. While I know what the area is all about and visited the place a couple of times when I was still a retainer, I'm pretty sure not even an invisibility spell could help me slip out of the brothel unnoticed, so there's no point in even trying to explore that area.

Savile's office isn't as heavily guarded and fortified, but the door's locked tighter than a priest in a chastity belt, and while I'm confident in my lockpicking skills, I'm unsure if I can open it without anybody noticing. However, being able to access this door would be very useful as it can potentially serve as an exit route. Could Fast Eddie maybe help me with a key?

Oh, and by the way, I'm not writing about escape routes and such because I've changed my mind and suddenly want to abandon my mission. No, I'm writing about this shit because once Gothren lies dead, I know I can NOT stay here for a minute! Once the deed is done, WE need to get the fuck out as soon as possible!

Sadly though, as I've come to notice during the past few days, doing any kind of reconnaissance regarding the assassination itself has been damn-near impossible. Between dancing, serving drinks at the tables, and being hired to have sex with strangers, there's simply no time. I might just have to start working on that next because, just as I wrote at the end of my previous entry, I do NOT want to overstay my welcome in this place.

I can't wait to be free again…

Sun's Dawn, 28th, 3E 428

(By Kanna)

Still a work in progress.

First Seed, 1st, 3E 428

(By Aliya)

I still haven't had a truly amazing customer experience, but fortunately, nothing has been genuinely awful either. Instead, they've all been somewhere between "well, this is boring" and "I guess he's okay" so far. It's also a little difficult for me to fake enthusiasm with my dates, but despite this, I've at least been able to make an impression on someone. That someone is none other than my owner, Savile Imayn, and yesterday, she commended me for my work so far and basically offered me a gift on a figurative silver platter.

She actually, literally brought up Gothren, and said that she wants me to serve him! To give him something special on his next visit! He supposedly likes to "sample" the new items on the brothel's ever-changing menu, which makes me perfect for this! This solves the biggest problem I've had with planning so far, which is trying to figure out an exact time and date, but with Savile essentially promising to hand me over to Gothren, that problem has been solved!

Oh, but I do have a problem. This might be too soon. Gothren wants me tomorrow! On Loredas evening! I still haven't been able to map out every area, I don't have an escape plan, and I haven't even been able to tell Thalis yet! He didn't visit yesterday! But what if I don't take this opportunity? Will I ever get another one like this later?

Kanna certainly seems to think that worrying is pointless, and that we should just grab the bull by the horns. "The longer we wait, the harder this is going to get", she said. I'm inclined to agree, but at the same time… I'm just so anxious! I just don't know what to do! I want to take the risk because I want to get out of here already, but… it might just be TOO risky!

Okay, deep breaths… I can't afford to start crying and panicking now. I must think about this rationally… or should I? Maybe Kanna is right about me worrying too much. Maybe I should just improvise and go by the flow instead of trying to devise some ultra-elaborate and complex murder plot. That certainly seems to be her line of thinking, as she's not one for planning. I find it hard to get into that kind of mindset personally, but I at least wish I could be as carefree, happy, and optimistic as she is.

Then again… she probably only exhibits those traits because she's literally fucking insane…

No offense, of course…

At least I still have a couple of hours to think before I have to go to work, but I must make my final decision soon. Oh, and I guess Thalis also must visit me today because if he doesn't… well, I guess the assassination won't be happening no matter what…

Whatever I decide, all I know is that I can't fail, and by Azura, I hope I won't.

End of Current Content(Lies! The 21st journal, "Strange Bedfellows", written by my beloved big brother, already has some content written.)