JoS/Kanna/22nd Journal - Catching Up

First Seed, 7th, 3E 428

Oh my word, does it feel good to be back home! Granted, I've only been living in Balmora for less than a year, but for me, home is more than just a physical place. It's more like a… feeling? Kinda like a sense of peace and belonging? Oh, who am I kidding! It's my brother! He's where my home is!

Our reunitement wasn't accompanied by tears this time around because, let's be honest, we both knew we were going to come home safe eventually. All we did was laugh as he picked me up and gave me a fun little spin-around while hugging me tight. If anything, instead of being worried for me, he was excited to hear about what we had been up to, and boy, was I happy to tell him! Well, it was actually Aliya talking, as she is the reason we spent so much time on the east coast, but still, I had a lot to chime in with.

Karim also told us tales of his own adventures, the most surprising of which was his latest one. He's actually been working with the Thieves Guild! Supposedly, there's some internal drama going on with them and the Fighters Guild because of the latter's shady dealings with Camonna Tong, which has soured his opinion of them and made him want to rethink his allegiances. However, it's not really so much of a "fuck the Fighters Guild" kinda situation as it is about him wanting to work to make the institution better, and as luck would have it, he's not alone inside the Fighters Guild with this.

One of his new friends in the Thieves Guild supposedly came by this morning, inviting him to join a little secret talk, or a "mediation summit" between Sugar-Lips Habasi and an Imperial lad called Percius Mercius, the former Guildmaster of the Fighters Guild in Vvardenfell. He had heard of my brother's exploits in Ald'ruhn, and safe to say, he was impressed. The word around the town is that Percius, like Karim, isn't too happy about the rot inside the guild he represents either, and is willing to work with the Thieves Guild against Camonna Tong.

Aliya and I should also tag along, as we're both pretty deeply entrenched in this drama. Still haven't forgotten what Camonna Tong did to me, and I never quite got my revenge against them. My friends saved me back then, so maybe this time, I get to spill their blood personally.

Now, though, it's time to clean, and my stupid big brother's gonna help me because he's been taking absolutely awful care of this house! There's dust and dirt everywhere! I guess I should also think about cooking something up. Wait, wait, how about something extra special? Karim turned fifteen two days ago, so we'll definitely need something to celebrate with! Maybe a steak dinner with the finest Sujamma I can get my hands on and lots of cheese? I mean, we've just GOT to have a lot of cheese!

Actually, now that I think of it… do they even sell steaks here in Vvardenfell? I don't think I've seen a single cow since coming here… but I did see some horse meat at the butcher's shop the other day… so maybe that'd make for an extra special main dish? Serve it with a creamy mushroom sauce on the side! Yum!

I'm gonna send Aliya shopping for ingredients as soon as she's done flirting with my brother. I think she's also gonna visit the Hlaalu Council manor to fish for clues about how to become their Hortator, but I'm not sure how that business will play out. Hahaha, I don't think she knows either! But I doubt they'll throw her in the clink for being a heretic even though the Tribunal does have an arrest warrant on her plump juicy ass. Seriously, it'll be fine! I hope…

First Seed, 8th, 3E 428

Three exciting developments to report from today, with Aliya's visit to the council manor being the most straightforward news to go through.

Being a somewhat high-ranking member of the House Telvanni and dressed to match, the Hlaalu were naturally suspicious of her. Still, the secretary of the manor, Nileno Dorvayn, being the smart woman she is, gave recognition to her Moon-and-Star and promised to arrange a meeting with a member of the Hlaalu council to discuss the matter further. Aliya still doesn't know who this someone is, but she'll be receiving a letter in the coming days, notifying her of when and where she can meet the elusive councilor. So, progress!

In other news, the meeting between Habasi and Percius went swimmingly. Even though there are some obvious moral differences between the guilds, that Imperial has promised to be a valuable ally to the Thieves Guild and wants to see these guilds working together against Camonna Tong rather than seeing them wage a fruitless war against each other.

Before that can happen, though, the Fighters Guild must be cleansed of corruption, starting with the stewards of Balmora and Vivec City branches, Eydis Fire-Eye and Lorbumol gro-Aglakh. Sheogorath's beard, these Orc names… I'll be calling him "Lord Bumol" to make things easier. Or perhaps "Bum Lord" would be better?

Anyway, while killing those two would be the easiest path forward, Habasi insists we try to do this non-violently, which Percius does not object to. However, we're kind of directionless regarding how to accomplish this goal. Like, should we frame them for a crime they haven't committed, blackmail them, or try to win them over? No clue! Or, at least, that's the impression Habasi gave us all during the meeting. After it was over and Percius went his own merry way back to Ald'ruhn, Habasi pulled Aliya and me to the side for a private chat.

"Khajiit still isn't sure if she can trust the Imperial", she said, glancing out of the window with her hands crossed behind her back. "But you two, she can trust. They've been doing good work for the guild, and they should finally meet the boss. He can help us deal with the corrupt stewards the "Thieves Guild way", so go meet him as soon as possible, yes?"

She was referring to the so-called "Gentleman" Jim Stacey, a man whom I hadn't even heard of until today. Supposedly, he's the local "Doyen", meaning that he reports directly to the Grey Fox, so while he's the leader of the Thieves Guild here in Vvardenfell, he's not the Guildmaster. The organizational structure of this guild as a whole is a bit confusing if you ask me, but I guess it shouldn't matter to me. Jim's also… let's just say, a bit paranoid. He's a wanted man with a sky-high bounty on his head, and as such, he only surrounds himself with people he knows he can trust. That list has only a handful of names, and if Habasi is to be believed, it now includes us as well! Habasi also suggested Jim might have other work for us as well, so it's probably a good idea to go see what this man's all about as soon as possible!

The last interesting development happened later in the evening, long after we got home.

To set a scene, I was half-naked and in the middle of preparing to take a bath when I suddenly caught a glimpse of a naughty little girl spying on our tranquil little home from the window. Despite feeling a little startled, I had a hunch she wasn't anyone dangerous, which is why I chose not to notify my brother or Aliya. Instead, sensing an opportunity to get a little playful with her, I decided to teach that peeping Tom a lesson for intruding on our private property.

I quickly found that little brunette girl in a bright red summer dress, about the same age as me, and I swear, she was utterly oblivious to her surroundings! She was trying to get a better view of what was happening inside our home, this time through the kitchen window, and I was sure she hadn't noticed me yet. Perfect for me and my perverted little idea! I snuck up on that brunette from behind, placed the edge of my dagger on her neck, and groped her pussy through the skirt like a real pervert. I wasn't even wearing anything since I was supposed to be taking a bath by the river!

She was petrified by fear and told me to hold on, saying she wasn't up to anything nefarious, but I just couldn't stop myself and behave! I was so excited, and far from done having fun with her! More than anything, I wanted to give her a little scare, so I lifted her skirt up to touch her pussy directly, and with the most lustful voice I could muster, I whispered: "If you wanted to see my naked body that badly, all you had to do was ask politely, babe…"

"No, no, that's not it", she whimpered, trying to explain herself. "I was just looking for - "

"I'll treat you real good", I said, interrupting her and giving her ear a playful nibble, moving my mouth toward her lips as she resisted. "I'll fawck you until you can't take it anymore…"

"K-Kanna, please", she whimpered again, putting an end to everything I was doing. I didn't let go of her, but I just kind of held her in place, quiet and curious about how she knew my name. Like, I'm pretty sure I'd never met this girl before! "Severa Magia sent me, and… please, just… put that dagger away…"

Now I was properly confused! "Who… are you?"

"Name's Babette, and… h-here, just read it…" she said and produced a letter from underneath her dress.

"Why not just knock?" I asked and sighed, taking the letter from her hands as I put distance between the two of us. The letter really was from Severa Magia, and she was looking for me. It was a simple and short letter, all things considered. I asked this "Babette" - who I assume is also with the Dark Brotherhood? - if she knew what Severa wanted from me, and she just nodded and smiled.

"A special contract for you, straight from the Night Mother herself", she said and plucked a couple of rings from her fingers, handing them over to me. Based on their appearance, I think they were part of the Threads of the Webspinner set, and Babette sort of hinted toward that as well when she continued. "I know you're already on a special mission, but we kinda have our hands full with contracts. Besides, we thought you might be starving for some proper work, considering how bloody lazy you've been with your letters recently…"

I turned apologetic, insisting the reason I hadn't written letters was actually because I'd been busy, but thankfully, Babette reassured me Severa wasn't mad. "Still, you should probably meet up with her at your earliest convenience", she insisted. "You'd better not keep the Night Mother waiting…"

I thanked her for informing me, after which she said she had to get going. She would've loved to stay a little longer to get to know me better - a sentiment I did share - but she also told me she's a busy girl. We bid each other adieu, I headed inside, and she turned around to leave.

Or, so I thought.

She had one more little gift ready for me, and threw herself at me just as I was about to open the front door, kissing me straight on the lips! Absolutely ate me out! And she bit my lip too! Seriously! As she removed herself from me, I could see a little bit of my blood on her lips and felt it dripping down my jaw as well. "You should get that checked out", she said and flashed her vampire teeth, "lest you wanna end up like me, an eternal, undead little girl…"

Well, I definitely don't wanna become a vampire! Why did she have to pull a stunt like that on me!? As an act of revenge for playing a sexual prank on her? If so, I guess I might deserve it, but… fuck's sake, to purposely infect someone with Porphyric Hemophilia! That's fucking demented! Seriously messed up! I need to get this checked out before it, err… "kills" me. I wish I could do it on my own, but I'm not talented enough to cure diseases like this by myself…

Karim says he knows someone who can help me, but that's gotta wait until tomorrow. I suppose that'll have to do. It's not like the vampire transformations happen overnight, so I have nothing to worry about… I hope…

First Seed, 9th, 3E 428

In addition to getting cozy with the Thieves Guild, Karim had also been making other new friends while Aliya and I were away. One of these friends is a young Breton called Liliana, and she's such a sweet girl! We have a lot in common and clicked almost immediately because of it, and she seems to enjoy Aliya's company quite a lot as well. I'm sure we'll become good friends in no time! And yeah, she could cure me! That girl's an incredibly talented healer, so I really have nothing to worry about!

Still, next time I see Babette, I'll give that bitch a piece of my mind for trying to turn me into a vampire…

After Karim went out on a work-related errand, Liliana expressed interest in getting to know the two of us better and hung out with us for a couple of hours, which both Aliya and I were honestly thrilled about. We sat down by a river, chatting for quite a long time, mostly talking about our background and upbringing, our adventures up until now, and our plans for the future. However, the juiciest of all the discussions we had involved boys, all because of how different Liliana is from us in that regard.

Liliana is… let's just say, a very normal twelve-year-old girl. That's to say, she doesn't have a lot of experience. No, no, even that's an understatement. She's a kissless virgin, which… I mean, there's nothing wrong with that, right? After all, that's how most youngsters are. Aliya and I, we're the real outliers here because chicks our age typically aren't all that interested in sex, and forget about having actual experience! That's why, when she learned that neither of us were virgins, she just couldn't believe it! Two girls, both younger than her, already leagues ahead of her in terms of sexual experience? She was shocked, I tell you! Shocked!

However, that shock wasn't coming from a place of judgment. In fact, it seemed to me like it made her feel both jealous and inferior. "Must be nice", she mumbled, clutching her knees against her chest with a cute, bright blush on her face. "Wish I had a boyfriend like you two…"

At this point, Aliya and I just looked at each other nervously, as neither of us wanted to correct her on the misunderstanding. I mean, we didn't want to shock her even more! So, instead, I asked her: "Do you have anyone you like then?"

She nodded, getting more embarrassed by the second. I didn't actually expect her to give me an answer, but that's exactly what she did. "Your brother…"

"You… have a crush on my brother?"

She nodded again, this time daring to flash a bright smile. "He's so handsome and brave", she said with a dreamy gleam in her eyes, but the shine only lasted for a little while before melancholy took over her. "…But I fear he might not be interested in me since I'm so young… and not pretty at all… not like her…"

Aliya wanted to let her know that wasn't true at all, saying she was incredibly pretty, but I was more interested in who in Oblivion Liliana was talking about when she said "her"!

"On the night we returned from our last trip, I followed him home", she said, blushing from ear to ear. "I was too shy to approach him, but… I wanted to confess my feelings for him so bad… maybe even… k-kiss him… but I… I saw him with Sottilde… h-his girlfriend, and… that woman… they… I watched them have sex through the window…"

I wasn't sure what to say. I wasn't even sure if I should've said anything. I just felt bad for her. I mean, I'm not sure who that woman is, but she for sure couldn't have been his girlfriend. No, no, no way. But still, to see a boy you're in love with having sex with someone else… it must've devastated her young and naïve virgin heart.

She wasn't done explaining, though. "I know I shouldn't have spied on them, but… I couldn't stop looking. It was, like… by the Nine, it was so amazing. I… I was just so jealous! I wanted him to do those things to me! It should've been me!"

I was a little shocked to hear her put it like that. Like, I kind of got the impression that this girl was about as chastised and innocent as any ordinary girl her age is… but I guess Dibella's little Knight-Initiate might have trouble controlling her young hormonal self after all! She sounded so fired up! Still, she quieted down quickly, and she was even sobbing a little as she continued.

"But I… I just… can't compare to her…"

"You don't need to compare yourself to anyone", Aliya said, leaning closer to Liliana to dry some of her tears up with her thumb. "You're perfect as you are…"

"But it's like he doesn't even notice me…"

"Then make him notice you", Aliya said, putting on the brightest smile she could muster. "Seriously, you should ask him out on a date."

Liliana brightened up a little, but only for a little while. All of a sudden, she almost looked afraid. "B-but… what if he rejects me?"

"So what if he does? What do you have to lose by asking?"

"Nothing, I guess… but I'm still scared…"

"I could also help you", Aliya suggested, "and tell him how you feel about him."

Liliana's response was loud and instantaneous. "No!" she shouted, looking like she even shocked herself by her shift reply. Fear and shame took over her, and she quieted down as she continued. "N-no, I-I mean… I… don't need help… so don't tell him anything…"

Aliya looked a little surprised, but nodded anyway. "If you say so."

"Thanks, though", Liliana said and stood up, getting ready to leave. "I feel better already", she continued, profusely thanking us both for lending her an ear. It really was no problem at all! I hope it works out for her! However, at the same time, I have to admit to feeling a little jealous about the idea…

I mean, that's my brother she's in love with! I have feelings for him too! Granted, I sleep around with other people as well - as does Karim - but he's the only person in all of Tamriel I can confidently say I love! Well, besides Aliya, maybe, but not as a friend, or as a brother. I mean love in a purely romantic way! Ain't nobody in this world who I love more than him! Besides, it's not like she only wants to have a one-off date with my brother. If she did, I would be happy to push her into his arms for a date, but she wants commitment! She wants him to be her boyfriend!

I honestly doubt my brother's interested in a long-term relationship, but… what if? If she were to get her way, and get between us… how would that affect my relationship with my brother? Would Karim even have time for me anymore if he started going out with her? Ahhh, I get jealous just thinking about it! Then again, that's probably how she also felt when she saw him having sex with someone else…

I hope I'm just worried for nothing, and I really should be supportive like Aliya was. Besides, I totally could've misread Liliana's intentions. I mean, I don't mean to stereotype Dibella's worshippers as promiscuous or anything, but she could just be looking for something casual and recreational. At least, I really hope that's the case…

Still, I should talk to my brother once he comes home. No, I don't mean to sabotage Liliana by betraying her wishes or anything like that, but like… I just want some reassurance that we're both on the same page, you know? Nobody loves him like I do, and I just want to make sure the feeling's mutual…

I'm sure to also have a talk with Aliya about this, just so I can set my head straight and make sure I'm not blowing this shit out of proportion. We'll have plenty of time tomorrow for more girls' chat when we get back on the road. That's right, we've got some out-of-town business to attend to! Just a little road trip around the Ascadian Isles, that's all! Don't plan on going on a months-long excursion like last time around!

Time to put the pen away and start thinking about what we'll have for dinner.

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